a dose of life.

will I ever be good enough?
will I ever, live up to expectations?
will I find someone who will take me as I am?

I tried & yet I fall.
fall down 7 times, stand up 8.

but I keep on falling.
and failing.
further & further.
distancing from people.
or have others been keeping me at a distant?

I need to get up and face things.
I need to be brave to battle my own fears.
my own insecurities.
battling with myself.

I will never be good enough.
that's what I believe.
as a motivation to do much better.
100%? more than that.

pushing limits.
pushing boundaries.
pushing mental & physical limits.

I am tired.
Tired of life itself.
Ain't it sad, we are all young & yet we feel life has no meaning to us?

We are very, young.

That's why.
We have to stand up straight, stand up tall.

I am a failure.
I believe I am a failure.
with this belief, I shouldn't be down.
It should be a motivation.

Things get in my way.
People lose faith in me.
All I have is myself.

I will try. I will not give up.
No matter how painful & lonesome it is.
I need to survive.

I don't want to exist ; I want to live.

ps://  I haven't been posting bahaha. forgive me. I'll be back & there will be a spamming galore soon enough. :) good day loves. x

light at the end of the tunnel.

we are so young & yet many of us are sad. 

they say these people are attention seekers. they say these people think too much. they put aside us because we're 'young and reckless'. people are so fast to judge. 

Being sad and depressed is never a laughing matter. Although I agree, there are a number who see 'looking sad/depressed' would garner some attention they seek in order for acceptance or assurance. Some are diagnosed as depressed. Some are sad for reasons they cannot comprehend. Either way, they should not be swept aside no matter how minute you think their reasons are. We are all humans, we are brothers and sisters inhabiting the Earth, we walk the same soil, we breathe the same air...we should all hold hands and help each other in times of sadness and even in happiness. 

But what do we see everyday? Picking on others, bullying others like it's alright. There are many posts on blogs, videos on youtube that touch on this issue. Sad isn't it? Sad that this is happening to our generation. 

Why are people sad?

That's the golden question. People are sad for many reasons. Family, personal struggles, peers, school, environment...the emptiness that one feel. Like there is a gap in their hearts that they cannot understand why is it there. Some people don't know why they're sad. 

"I just am."

I've seen people mock these people, calling them crazy & 'out of their minds'. It's because people like these that makes things even worse, sadly.

If you happen to see this post, you may not know me, I might not know you...but hey, things are going to be okay. Yes, I know, it's an overused term and you think it's full of lies. But, like this blog post say, there's light at the end of the tunnel. I won't touch on religious statements because I respect everyone's beliefs but you know, anything that's bottled up in you...it's better for you to speak it up. It's hard, I know. But making yourself hurt even further won't solve your problems. Harming yourself isn't either. I know, I've been there. 

it'll all be alright. 

& for your information : I'm a tweet or an email away.