end of October already?

boo!

Happy Halloween guys. 

(for the record, I don't celebrate Halloween.)

a short rant. for years, people have been bashing about the idea of celebrating Halloween. Saying it's a Pagan ritual & that if we celebrate it we're devil-worshipping-Pagans.

......ha? 

& here I thought partying is okay. In my understanding, when one performs rituals to commemorate an event/occasion. But to have a Halloween-themed-party or kids going 'trick-or-treating', to me & my only personal opinion...is okay in my good. When one starts to go batshit crazy being in covens & such...that's where the problem is. Why suddenly I speak of covens?

Paranomal Activity 4. 

(no, not going to insert the poster here. Scared me senseless.)

one of my favorite Youtubers, @ItsKingsleyBitch made spoilers on Paranormal Activity (in the cases of which you haven't or don't dare to watch it cause you're scared of shatting your pants) for Halloween & gave sort of guidelines on what candy to give out for Halloween. Plus, to remind people that Halloween is to be creative in their costumes, to dress up and not to and I quote, slut-up.

short rant ends here. moving on!

my heart goes to all those who were affected by Hurricane Sandy. I've read & seen updates on tumblr & I hope anyone reading this to stay safe!

well then. 

new post coming up on midnight. :)

a labyrinth.

"we have to learn how to fall then we'll be strong enough to pick up the pieces." 

After going through some rough patches these past few weeks, I broke down & cried in the dorm. My roommates waited for me to be done & later asked what happened. Unexpectedly I began giving a lecture on how life's not all a fun & smiles. I am never a good speaker in these areas nor have I lived old enough to taste every bittersweet events of life but..."it's the past that teaches us to be prepared for the future."

...is what they normally say & believed but I personally think it's still difficult. 

Life is a series of mazes, you go through ups & downs, twist and turns, dead-ends, probably encounter a Minotaur & such. Eventually you will get out from the maze and do remind yourself not to turn back, but keeping moving forward ; to venture the next maze.

Phases in life. 

Memories stay in our minds for a while, probably a long while, it comes and goes and for some, they will never fade. We forget but when a person or an event became a large part of your life, it will be hard to just forget about it. It's nice to visit memory lane once in a while, but don't stay there long enough. Don't be discouraged, people who you thought you can't live without, can live just fine without you. What does that tell you?

Suck it up. 

Pardon me but it's pointless to stay for something that it's not worth staying. Moving on takes baby steps. It's time to stand up, brush your bruises, or tend them with antiseptics or something, and start taking the first step again....into the next maze.

Life is funny. Being alive, having feelings, the ability to see, to hear, to feel, to touch, to taste, giving love, receiving love, losing love...to me is all amazing. Life is amazing. & yet I said life is funny. Funny in the sense that, everyone's luck differs & we all seem to complain about it. Guilty.

But no one had it easy.

Don't ever sit and stare at a dead end. Find a way out. Don't stay too long in memory lane. Time waits for no man.

People come and go. Things come and go. At the end of the day, all you have is yourself and who else knows you best other than yourself? It's time to let go...and keep moving forward.

& that's what I remind myself every day. 

I have been a reckless wreck these past few weeks but, it's time to move on.

但是,请记得我。

light at the end of the tunnel.

we are so young & yet many of us are sad. 

they say these people are attention seekers. they say these people think too much. they put aside us because we're 'young and reckless'. people are so fast to judge. 

Being sad and depressed is never a laughing matter. Although I agree, there are a number who see 'looking sad/depressed' would garner some attention they seek in order for acceptance or assurance. Some are diagnosed as depressed. Some are sad for reasons they cannot comprehend. Either way, they should not be swept aside no matter how minute you think their reasons are. We are all humans, we are brothers and sisters inhabiting the Earth, we walk the same soil, we breathe the same air...we should all hold hands and help each other in times of sadness and even in happiness. 

But what do we see everyday? Picking on others, bullying others like it's alright. There are many posts on blogs, videos on youtube that touch on this issue. Sad isn't it? Sad that this is happening to our generation. 

Why are people sad?

That's the golden question. People are sad for many reasons. Family, personal struggles, peers, school, environment...the emptiness that one feel. Like there is a gap in their hearts that they cannot understand why is it there. Some people don't know why they're sad. 

"I just am."

I've seen people mock these people, calling them crazy & 'out of their minds'. It's because people like these that makes things even worse, sadly.

If you happen to see this post, you may not know me, I might not know you...but hey, things are going to be okay. Yes, I know, it's an overused term and you think it's full of lies. But, like this blog post say, there's light at the end of the tunnel. I won't touch on religious statements because I respect everyone's beliefs but you know, anything that's bottled up in you...it's better for you to speak it up. It's hard, I know. But making yourself hurt even further won't solve your problems. Harming yourself isn't either. I know, I've been there. 

it'll all be alright. 

& for your information : I'm a tweet or an email away. 

Kota Kinabalu, Malaysia.

I am currently studying in Universiti Malaysia Sabah, Kota Kinabalu. Kota Kinabalu is an amazing place especially those who enjoy nature as Sabah is a gem in terms of nature, sight-seeing and it's beautiful here. The capital's nice too, once you know the way around. People's opinions might differ but...I like it here. As much as...well I'll tell stories on a different post! :P

Me & my friends went out on an outing exploring town...there's more pictures but I changed laptops and phones & everything's out of hand. I present to you, the side of KK we explored!

paperplasticfeelings.

so, I'm back to blogging. last time I blogged was..when I was 16 I believe. I stopped cause I got lazy. but today, October 29th 2012, I decided to return to the blogging scene. Blogging to express and not to impress. hi, the name's Yatii (pronounced yah-tee), 20 and currently studying to be a Geologist. as my profile says, I intend to save the world someday. yay me. 

my blog's name is "别回头就往前飞奔。" 

which meant "Don't turn around, dash/walk/fly forward." as much as my little (very, little) understanding and mastery of grasping the Chinese language. I take interest in the Chinese language.

my blog's address is "paperplasticfeelings" I had to filter like, over 50 possible blog addresses cause apparently 'great minds think alike'. so, "paperplasticfeelings" is easy ;

paper , plastic, feelings. we write our feelings on paper, either virtual or real paper (Facebook, twitter, blogs, diaries). we lie to make ourselves feel better, which is...well, a lie  i.e plastic. & all that adds to feelings. I'm sorry my logic is unlogical sometimes. :)

so, that's all for an introduction. I don't have a definite theme for this blog. so I'll write whatever I feel like saying or what I see.

谢谢你。